When we close our heart!

When our heart is closed, we experience life with a rigid mindset!

Usually, that happens after a dramatic moment in our life, especially when we are young and we don’t know how to deal with our emotional state as of yet…

From our human perspective we can’t bear the pain so we cope with it through putting a lid, instead of a band-aid, through creating walls, but thick ones, and we get relieved, it seems like the wound it is not licking anymore, we feel nothing for a while, and it is awesome, right?!

Ironically it is not, because when we shut our heart we do not close ourself only from negative emotions but from positive ones too. We are unable to be present and to trust, we have this strong shield around, because we forget to cry, at the same time we forget to smile.

After a while, we become so dark, so grumpy, we become aggressive or at worst very silent, we experience depression and all kinds of mental problems, we vibrate in the lowest of energies, we are jealous, we hate, we blame, we are remorseful, we become violent, we destroy, we can’t stand those who have a big open heart, we just can’t, I mean how dare them to be so good, so nice, so happy, how can they experience what we can’t?!

We don’t understand that it is not their fault, not ours whatsoever, life has it all included, and we have been closed off for a reason, we just forgot what was the reason in the first place, it has been such a long time we have not been quiet our-self.

Just like when you are in a dark room, and you see the light from inside, you really want to go and check it out, it looks beautiful out there, but you have been used in this dark, ugly, no airy, no space whatsoever room, and it is so tempting to go out there, but, how do I go there, what if I lose my eyes from all that light and what if I lose my heart from all that freedom?!

Therefore, we stay there in our shadows, hopefully, we will be shaken and we will allow our-self to feel again, someday…Truth is, when you open your heart there is a risk of being hurt again, but there is a risk of being alive, energized, and it is worth taking it if we only can feel those repressed emotions longing to be recognized.

You only know life as a claustrophobic, you despise wide open!
You fear pain but you are numbing love, besides, just like everything else in the cosmos, emotions are temporary, they are not there to remain forever, they come and go, so open the door and fly!  Love yourself ❤️❤️❤️