The dark night of the soul!

It is eclipse session again, are you feeling it?!

Transcendence…

Running through in and out of myself.

Life feels like a fleeting dream and I am all alone.

A part of me wants you so badly but another is frightened and repelled by your presence, sadly shutting you out.

Who am I by the end of the ocean, do I resemble to the one on the surface.

It certainly feels like a lone journey.

Like the soul, it is reaching for something beyond its grasp.

Like it is trying to find some way to recognize itself.

It feels like a desperate need to connect, but to whom and to what?

It feels like shallowness and detachment.

Ironically, there is no escape without and there is no tangible safety within.

Living in two worlds and accepting both as one, yet, coming and going.

A playlist of outdated songs…

I fall deep and I touch the ground and there is no book nor knowledge that can save me from myself.

Who am I when I love someone who doesn’t and who am I without their love?

Who am I without my understanding, who am I when I think and who am I when I observe my inner self externally?

Am I wanting to be loved or am I looking to mend myself?

Am I looking to the wrong places for my needs to be met just to prove my own existence?

Is it my spirit guiding me to the final destination, or am I already dwelling there?

Or, perhaps, perhaps, this is all some kind of trickery to force me embrace parts of me that are still lost in translation!

RS❤❤